I don't even know why I'm writing this online, but I guess maybe some input on the issue would be nice (if anyone even reads this...).
I've come to a turning point in my life. Throughout the years, there have been quite a few big changes in my life, but one thing has remained constant. Ever since the 3rd grade, when my family moved away from Prior Lake, I don't think I've had more than 3 or 4 real friends. If you're looking for names, I'm not giving any out. I'm sorry to anyone that offends- maybe my view of a friend is just way out of whack. Before I continue though, I'll have you know that I enjoy being around every single one of you and I consider you all friends, at least on my half of the equation.
However, here's the thing that pisses me off. It seems that for every 25 times I ask people if they'd like to go do something fun, I get a "yes" maybe once. There's always some lame excuse like, "I'm too busy," "I'd like to, but I have this going on," or something too. Then later on that night or the next day, they're out with other people doing just the activity I suggested and they magically made it happen. Do people really just not like me but not have the balls to tell me or quit leading me on? If so, for the love of God, quit pretending to be my friend and just tell me. I'm sick of tagging along like the annoying little kid brother that can't hang out with the "cool" kids.
Before this summer, I did think my view of a friend was out of whack. I thought maybe my ideas were a bit too ambitious. Then I met an awesome group of people. These people renewed my hope of actually finding some real friends. I had the most amazing summer of my entire life- hands down. It seems that fact has aggravated at least one person so far. So if you find yourself in the same position, ask yourself when the last time you noticed I wasn't around was. I bet most people would be hard pressed to remember a single instance.
With all that said, I'm beginning to think I just don't fit in here and that it's time to move on...
Which way...
Back At It.
Currently listening to : Iced Earth - Dante's Inferno
Well, I'm back at school. Classes started and they're going well, so I'm excited for this semester. I'm pretty glad to be programming again and I'm actually going to try to expand what I know about other languages while also branching out into web design. That might mean my own site later on that's not hosted through Blogspot. We'll see. One of the things I'm excited about is programming my own calendar/to-do list. It'll be free and Java-based (for those of you who don't know what Java is, this will basically mean it doesn't matter what OS you're running- Windows, Linux, Mac OS X, etc...) so if any of you might be interested in it, be sure to keep an eye on this blog for info on how far along it is.
As I'm sure many of you have heard, Cassie and I broke up about a month ago now. The decision was mine and I made it for a few reasons. I'm not going to go over them here, but if you want to know them, feel free to ask.
Sorry for the short update, but it's back to homework.